First teeth extraction...

Today, marks my first teeth extraction. I woke up this morning, feeling rather blur, sat for awhile and drag myself for my bath. Soon, I am out to grab my breakfast, my kinda "last" breakfast alone with my whole, complete set of tooth (minus 3 extracted wisdom tooth). I feel rather idiot to have breakfast alone during weekend, where people are always with family or friends or worst, couple!... But, nevermind, I survived the breakfast sitting at the most end table. That's the disadvantage to live in some neighbourhood that you do not have interesting friends around, those not so interesting, I bet you will not be interested as well, right?

I went there without my brain as I am not in the mood to do anything today, but I know I need the extraction. Reached there, waited an hour plus, too many patients (like they always do). Went in the room, not much question from me, cause I don't know what to ask or what to expect. But my dentist did not say anything neither, he just mention "today I'll extract one out of 3 first"... not much explaination (I actually don't really like this mono channel of communication... I hope the next time I am there, I'll be more pro-active so that I do not feel like I am paying for nothing - "I need to know things that I might not know doc", or better if he can be more pro-active...). When I am not in the mood to talk, I DON'T talk, damn me!

After the extraction... little that I know, I kinda "sayang" to let go, but too late it's gone. One more thing that upset me was the teeth that been extracted were "thrown away, so we cannot get it for you" (this is what was told to me by the nurse...) I am out of the clinic and started my car, then I purposely make a U-turn to get back into the clinic as I realise I was damn stupid to not ask for it earlier. (I had this in mind before I went into the room... but little that I know, I am having something close to alzheimer, gosh!)

So, yea... journey to braces really begin. Tomorrow, I can't flash my smile widely... and I hope that I remember that, else, I'll be showing one big gap in my smile...

Current feeling... um, empty and alone and doubt... I don't think I am fit for any thinking right now. choa...